Since I was a freshman in high school, I could not wait to be a senior. I wanted to in my mind, escape and see the real world. I wanted to go to college because I thought that it would be more fun than my high school. Now as a senior, I sit here and think, where did the time go? I feel almost sad/disappointed that I spent the majority of my time thinking about where I was going instead of living my life in the present. Everything in my mind was geared toward the future and geared toward living in another place. But now this year, I want to make the most out of my time and I’m starting to second guess myself. With college applications coming up, I realize that my adult life is right around the corner. It’s scary to think that I’m going to have to be responsible for all my actions. Now I want nothing more than to follow up with my goals that I set this summer, such as, making my school and community more sustainable. I’m planning on meeting with a science teacher soon to express my goals and plans. I will keep you updated!
I’m back from my super-fun 11 day trip in Washington. There I had the time of my life.
I was with a program called Girls on Ice and I had the privilege of being with 8 other girls and exploring Mt. Baker to learn about science, art, etc.
I wrote in a journal while I was there and have decided to post excerpts in parts. Here is an entry from August 1st:
“It’s still hard to grasp exactly what’s going on. As I’m sitting here at base camp, I think about how much I love this place, but once we travel outward I begin to hate it. To find the most beautiful spots, you have to put yourself through so much pain and stress. I’m so far out of my comfort zone and I haven’t taken a shower in forever. At times I miss my comfortable bathroom. I will admit, I’m getting more use to the idea of zero privacy. For 6 days I have to eat out of the same bowl and drink all the dish water.”
Today I’m going on a 5 hour flight to Seattle, WA where I will meet up with my fellow instructors and a few other girls to go mountain climbing! I’m leaving a day early because I live on the east coast and I have so many feelings of nervousness/excitement/happiness/fear. This is my first major outdoor experience. Sure I’ve been hiking, canoeing, etc but I can’t say that I’ve ever been on a mountain with a huge backpack on my back and I also can’t say that I have slept in a tent. I most likely won’t have access to internet while there, so hopefully when I return August 10 I will have the opportunity to blog and post pictures about my experience.
I feel so obligated to make this post after recent events that have occurred. Let’s begin this story by telling you how I feel about education and my high school experience. In my opinion, I believe that at many schools, education has been geared toward test taking and finding out what to do in order to fake colleges into thinking that you belong at their school. In terms of academics, students (including me) take AP classes not necessarily because we WANT to, but because we feel obligated to. Don’t get me wrong. . .AP classes are totally fine, but I tend to not enjoy them as much as other classes because the classes are so geared to squishing so much amount of information into a small amount of time to the point where you do not really get to LEARN the information as well.
Now there are many people who do well with this amount of stress and cramming information, but I would say for me that I am more of a hands on person who learns best through experience and real-world training. . .Sadly. . .education does not seem to cater toward my learning styles.
By this point, you can probably guess that I did not do to well on my exams. By looking at my scores, one might consider me to be inadequate, dumb, etc. I don’t blame you. I felt the same way after seeing my scores. . .But I can assure you that I studied for my exams, prepared well in class, aced tests in class, and got good grades in the classes.
I am not sure what went wrong. Maybe it is because I mentally freak out before I take any exam like this? Despite these events, I do not want this score to define me and my abilities. Hopefully college will be different? Is there really hope for me? I hope so..
I AM NOT MY SCORES. YOU DON’T KNOW ME.
Side note: I have yet to discuss my scores with my parents. I managed to check the mail early and I safely stored away the horrendous scores.
I am always thinking about the future and what I think my life would be like. The entire idea of the unknown is just so intriguing.
Since I’m a senior I have begun to think about colleges. My college list has change dramatically over the months along with the idea of what I want to major in. Despite all of this, I think I have an idea! I’m leaning toward either environmental science, sustainable agriculture, and/or ecology (maybe even a mixture of them all).
Colleges I’m interested in include: Oberlin College, Eckerd, Green Mountain College, Bennington College, UGA, SUNY-ESF, College of the Atlantic, Warren Wilson College
I’ve even begun to look up ideas for urban gardens! I currently live an apartment with limited space so hydroponics, aquaponics, and window gardens interest me. I’m tempted to try to start building my own hydroponics system but I have no idea where to start. There are lots of links on the web and videos for these things.
If I do actually start to build my own hydroponics system, I will make sure to include pictures and summaries.
It is all a little scary that we do not know where our food comes from? Obviously, it is important that we stay informed about the important matters of our life, but it is all too easy to get consumed in other things. It is so easy to turn our cheek, cover our eyes, and clog our ears. I recently watched the documentary Food inc. and let me tell you, I LEARNED ALOT! I’ve always said that I have wanted my own farm. So..I’ve decided that I should actually do it! It may not be this summer, considering that this summer is almost over and I am going on an important trip July 28th, but next summer I plan to work/intern on an actual farm 🙂 You should hold me accountable, just in case this does not happen.
Waking up today proved to be kind of tough. Yesterday we went on a 10
mile kayaking and canoeing trip (need I mention that this was my first
time canoeing) and now my hands are extremely sore. Despite the fact
that my partner and I came in last place out of all the canoes and
kayaks, I felt like a celebrity as I was greeted with all the applause
and smiling faces once I made it to my destination. You may be
wondering, how are you not embarrassed? Normally I would be, but I
think you come to learn a lot from being at sc3. You learn that
sometimes you come in last place and that it’s ok. The important thing
is that you get back up, smile, and learn not only from others but
from your failures. Although too many, this is just a simple canoeing
trip, to me it was a life lesson and it also encourages me to go to my
school and try new techniques in order to try and reach people who
don’t understand how to take care of this beautiful earth. I guess the
point of this blog post is to encourage you to try and do things that
you may not be so good at. Talk to people that you normally don’t talk
to. Question things that you normally consider to be true. It is only
when you get out of your comfort zone and your bubble of protection
that you truly can grow.
After watching the movie Rendition, a movie that follows the story of a CIA agent who witnesses an enhanced interrogation in a foreign country involving torture. In ethics, for a week we watched videos, read articles, and talked about the United States involvement in interrogations like these and how many leaders have continued denying it. Although it is more than obvious that we in fact do become involved in such events, I can not help but wonder if torturing people provides reliable information. In my opinion, I would say that no we do not at all receive reliable information. The main question is whether it is best to not punished innocent people but let the guilty people go or is it better to punish innocent people so that the guilty people do not freely go?
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